words
by Uma
Writings
Sadness = Joy
“We fight sadness mightily. We want to be happy. The pursuit of happiness is a national right, a universal obsession. And we think that the obvious way to be happy, to have the lilt, the sparkle, the high of happiness, is to avoid sadness.. After the death of what was a really profound friendship I am deeply contemplating what it means to let myself be sad. I mean REALLY sad. It feels embarrassing. It feels like some how I am weaker for allowing myself to be hurt so much. I fight the tears, I fight the depression. I don’t get depressed, I don’t have regret. How did I let myself get so intertwined with someone? How did I let this mean so much to me that this could hurt SO bad. What did I do wrong? I must have done something wrong. “…In fact, the opposite is true. It is […]
Read MoreAnger
“Anger is an integrity-protecting response to the invasion of your personal boundaries. It is “no” to a wrong, a violation. It draws lines and throws up barricades. Proper anger cuts like a knife through water. It is quick, clear, needs no explanation. There’s nothing cleaner, more effective than appropriate anger. Authentic anger is specific and justified, and it’s direct expression exposes impropriety and defends integrity in a way that benefits everyone.” I grew up in a home where we expressed our anger VERY openly. As I moved deeper in to the yoga world I began to think that our biting truth, our raised voices and body language were problematic aspects of my childhood. For a few years, especially when I moved to cbd shop California (from New York/New Jersey) I really tried to hold my tongue and refine my speech as people seemed generally offended by me. Even with this […]
Read MoreDenial
“Many suppose that the path to enlightenment and self-mastery involves, if not denying, at least “transcending our negative” emotions. Shouldn’t we rise above our baser instincts and ascend to the tranquil joy and compassion for after all, that is our nature, right? I’m convinced that such transcending is simply a path to illusive equanimity that will be blown apart as soon as any real life challenges arise. If you think you can transcend fear, anger and sadness, try riding the A train from the top of Manhattan to the depths of Brooklyn at midnight and see how you do. Or go through the holocaust museum in Jerusalem or spend a night on the streets of Calcutta. “Feelings are real. They are not ideas that can be turned off. They are not abstractions. They are physical manifestations of energy, uniting body and mind and bringing them to the moment. Unexpressed, repressed, […]
Read MoreFear
“Fear properly channeled yields wide-awake engagement….”Fear is a vitally useful emotion. It places you on alert, catalyzes your senses and heightens your awareness in the face of danger. Fear is your friend, your radar for your voyage through life. It is a basic instinct of human survival — physical, psychological, spiritual. We need to have an acute sense of what threatens our well-being. Fear teaches us to pay attention to what’s going on, and a well-honed sense of fear allows us to maintain dynamic equilibrium in an inevitably unpredictable world.” -Gabrielle Roth, Maps to Ecstasy.I find it unhealthy when people completely negate fear and reduce it to only a negative force. To completely deny and disregard this very real aspect of human nature is to turn away from the divine–as every aspect of who we are is a tool for our awakening. Gabrielle goes on to address what happens when […]
Read MoreFeelings are neither positive or negative….
“Feelings are neither positive nor negative; they simply are elemental forces in our life energy with their own vibration and functions. They are essential to our health and well-being. Essentially, fear protects, anger defends, sadness releases, joy uplifts, compassion unites. Fear is close to the surface of ourself, anger is rather deeper, sadness and joy are progessively interior, and compassion emanates from our profound center. Each is a level and a vibration of energy that needs to flow freely for us to really be engaged in the present.” I’ve been immersing myself in Gabrielle Roth’s book Maps To Ecstasy and it’s such a beautiful spiritual teacher. The chapter about The Power of Loving unpacks 5 emotions as a way to a spiritually awakened heart. The quote above is from her book, as is the one below. I highly recommend! “…To achieve this we have to let our emotions surface, get […]
Read MoreNon-harming or Truthfulness: Which do we practice first?
Ahimsa and Satya, the first two yamas outlined in Patanjali’s yoga sutras, highlight the yogi’s need to cultivate the qualities of non-harming and truthfulness if one wants to truly master union and connection with our highest Self. The yogic sages documented vast amounts of information in the form of lists. They put the most important topics at the top of the list. There is a reason why non-harming comes before truthfulness in this powerful spiritual text. This conversation has been discussed for hundreds of years and it unfolds new wisdom for me every time I encounter it. And it always reminds me that the krama, or divine order, is not arbitrary, but rather profound and packed with meanings and responsibility. We don’t need to choose one or the other. But rather, a masterful being melds these two moral standards together gracefully. The process of melding is called sammelana. My teacher […]
Read MoreI was taken…
These words came through me after one of the most powerful moon cycles I’ve experience in a long time. December 21, 2014-January 20, 2015 I was Taken… This cycle I was taken by Life. The exquisite beauty of connection, the devastating fear of loss. This cycle I was taken with Presence, It turned me on. It scared the shit out of me. This cycle I was taken with Myself. I can understand nothing if I cannot remember myself. This cycle I was taken with Beauty. It brought me down to my knees This cycle I was taken with Self-hatred, I love myself now more than ever. This cycle I was taken by the Light. It can blind me with it’s potential This cycle I was taken with Commitment. I am humbled by its wisdom and grace. This cycle I was taken by Life. This cycle I was taken by Love.
Read MoreInstalling the window, doors and floors
We had these doors and windows hand made from a local Tico wood craftsmen. We installed steel 4×4 window/door jams and mounted the windows and doors to them with screws. Next we sprayed insulation around the seams of the doors and windows. We installed locally sourced bamboo flooring we had found through our local builder (Sustainable Solutions of Costa Rica).
Read Morebuilding the jungle bathroom…
Here is the temporary bathroom that we built with mostly left over materials. We installed a propane tankless hot-water, low-flow eco toilet, shower valve and biodigester. In the future we plan to harvest the methane gases from the biodigester to fuel the hot-water heater.
Read Moredoor/window cut outs and paint
Next we cut out the spaces for the windows and doors for our container house. Then we painted the interior and installed 4×4 metal framing for the doors and windows. At this point the container is starting to feel like a house.
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